God keeps me safe, not matter the chaos in life. I am safe. I am secure.

It is not by my works, but with a willingness to follow Him, I will be obedient.

He keeps me. Alive. Fulfilled. I lack for no good thing.

I will obey God in all I do.

He preserves me.

He has my life in His hands.

God is faithful. He holds me close to his bosom.

I will praise the Lord – with my soul.

I am faithful to God – because he has been faithful to me, before I was in my mothers womb.

I am purified by the Blood of Jesus. Whole. Blameless.

God has set me on secure ground, and on high places. He guards me with his angels, who go before me, keeping me safe.

God delivers me from evil.

Psalm 23

To this, I sing Praises to the King.

I say Yes and Amen to his promises.

Yes and Amen is what God says when I lean into HIS word and trust Him with all of me.

In these times of restlessness and evil bouts of hatred across the world. Sickness threatens our being by the organizations that may have an agenda.

But we stand secure. With God. We stand. No fear. Only live in Hope and Faith. We stand on His Word. We praise him in the storms of life. We pray without ceasing. We love God. We trust Him. We lean on him, and ask his wisdom for what to do. We love, even when it’s hard.

God, you know all things. We trust fully in your plan. No weapon formed against us shall prosper. We, your people have the land. It belongs to us, because you said you’d take it from the wicked and give to the righteous. We / I am your righteous child. I am yours. Imperfect, but holy, because of the blood of Jesus that lives in me.

I love you Jesus. I will lay my head down to sleep tonite, and rest in your arms, keeping me safe all the days of my life. You plan my moments. You are mine and I am yours. Praise Your holy name. I say this, trusting you bring me through like a shining star. Amen.

Verse mapping and diagraming scripture!

While writing Forever Hope, (released February 13, 2020 on Amazon), it was evident God wanted me to share my story. It’s raw, real, simple and to the point.

I will admit, there was a bit of arguing with God while writing the manuscript over those twelve months. I didn’t mind sharing the facts, but the details were a bit daunting, and I wasn’t certain I needed to share them. I’d get through a few pages, and be in tears. The emotions, the memories all came rushing up to the surface. There is something about writing our memoirs that bring to life what we are conveying. God was so merciful during those experiences. The healing THROUGH each event was absolute. Yet, there is a special bond between pen and paper that connects those who read the story. That’s why I continued writing, seeing it too its’ completion.

I will admit it was not an easy task. But the assurance of knowing that someone, or many, would be touched by the story made it all worth the effort. I prayed, talked and questioned – ‘why was it that I was chosen to live this life, with this story for this generation?’. God knows. I don’t. But in the spirit of listening to my Daddy, who knows what He is doing, I wrote. I conquered, and found a love for writing that was deeper than anticipated.

As the chapters unfolded on the computer, the assignment to offer each chapter a title that was intriguing, simple and to the point. The first chapter was the most challenging to commit to. Deciding to name it Genesis, (not after the musical group, lol), but the Genesis from the Bible. Beginnings. The start of something. That is where I began. Not as a baby, but the transitioning of my early childhood memories, a monumental move from Chicago to suburbia, which left me struggling as a child.

My mom wasn’t a great communicator. She did the best she knew how. But it was simply tough for me to move from the friends made, then to move mid way through the first semester made it more challenging. Like a huge pimple on the middle of a forehead, or sticking out like a sore thumb, is how I felt — for years. It’s awkward, those early years. Pre-Pubescent. Insecure. Uncertain of what laid ahead. But God had plans.

It was a plan He made. Two families moved to the same area only a short time before our family did. They were the ones who adopted me into their lives, as a surrogate daughter. They were the ones who introduced me to Christ. I had no idea what that meant, or how I would live that life out. But it was a preparation for my adult life. God was my safety net through tough times that would happen long before I experienced the situations.

The beginning.

When is the end? I do not know. But I trust a God that knows. He prepared my first half of my life, andif I get to live to 100ish, I get to share his grace with my faith.. My story is deep. It’s wide. And every step I took, was a step of assurance that he is with me always.

You can grab your book at Amazon for the full scope of this eventful life shared for all to be encouraged by. Live by faith. Do not doubt. The everlasting Father is amazing and trustworthy!

Hope is forever when you live in the freedom of Christ.

Prayer: Father God, thank you for your guidance, even when we do not understand what is happening. May we live in full trust of your plans. When we make decisions, let us ask you first how to follow through in each event. thank you for hope, love and your amazing grace. Without you, I can do nothing. In Jesus name. Amen .

The story of my life has been one that has had its fill of struggle. I’m sure you have your experiences as well.

What a great confidence to find peace for my soul, that only comes in Christ

We all have a story to tell.

The amazing thing is, when we share our struggle, it encourages someone else.

As I wrote this book, I will be honest to say there was a bit of conversation (one sided, don’t ya know!). I did not want to share the raw details of my life with the world. It’s personal. It’s up-close.

It’s “my” story. It’s also in the past. I am one to move on, walk into the next season with gusto, determination, and hope, not daring to get stuck in the way life was – whether it be the good or the bad.

As I would “disagree/argue” with God, that I did NOT want to share the details, my fingers just kept typing. The writing continued. The story fell onto the paper with tears, memories, love, hope and awe-ness to God, who is the Maker of my life.

How fitting it was to name the book FOREVER HOPE.
Hope is not a sometimes thing in our life. Especially if you have Jesus as friend, Savior, Lord and Guide.

I was reminded again, through each page I wrote, a deeper sense how much he loves me. How those details were simply intertwined within every fiber of my being. None of the situations were a surprise to Him. He knew my life before I was formed in my mothers womb. Jeremiah 1:5 / Psalm 139:13.

I knew that was so as I lived THROUGH the pivotal challenges, each one designed to strengthen me, not tear me down. God’s faithfulness stays strong always. We can count on Him. He never fails us. (remember, when the thought comes to your mind, asking God why would you do this… he doesn’t bring harm, the enemy, aka devil does).

I say all this, to invite you to grow stronger, not in your power, but in God’s goodness and strength. We must look to Him with all our life.

For more encouragement, click here for the link to purchase Forever Hope.

Prayer:  Lord help me to be an instrument of your love. Use my situation to help other by your Word and my testimony. Nothing goes to waste, no matter how good or bad life may look at the moment. everything changes as we trust you more. I love you Jesus. Help me every moment of every day. Amen

It’s quite exciting to launch a new book.

In less than two years, I wrote my “story”.

A story where the “genesis” (new beginnings) began.

A place where an insecure, girl came to know the promises of Jesus Christ. The One who kept me safe. Taught me how to live, what to stay away from, and how to press into His Word, for the future awaited. Things that happened that should have rocked anyones world. But God. He sustained me through some difficult times.

Come with me. Share the heart warming friendships that I came to know, along with some tribulations. Get a cup of coffee or some tea. Ya might want to have some tissues handy. It might get emotional for ya.

You can preorder your book at Amazon now. Date set is February 13, 2020. Ebooks are also available if you like Kindle.

Join me in this journey called life.

I would love to hear a bit of your story. You have experiences to share that will help somebody! It may be hard, as it was a surprise to me, how emotional it was to write down. Each detail to so many pieces of my life, for everyone to read. Dare to grow, heal and become the person you are meant to be.

Forever Hope, by DL Rudd. Purchase on Amazon, available in print February 13, 2020.

I am looking forward to hearing YOUR story too!

Where there is HOPE

It’s Christmas season, a time of giving, loving, gathering and sharing. But even in the midst of togetherness often there is loneliness. Strife amongst people in our circles.

Loneliness. During the happiest season of all?

How could that be?

Depression hits hard in the winter, and through this time of togetherness.

We can help people conquer this. By prayer. Through grace. With love. Being genuine and not fake.

Let’s dig in, as I write, share and prayerfully ask God to guide and help us to learn how to progress into the Hope that never fails.

Jesus is his name. We can live fully with Him.

No matter how hungry you may get, God always has a way to bring you food/manna. —> HOPE!
The trees may be barren for the winter, but the bright colors of cardinals offer a smile to our heart, and hope into our life. #live #hope #2020vision

Here we are. The last day of 2015, and how did you do this year?

Was it a fun year?

Did you grow, learn or stretch? 

Were you laden with hardship or difficulties?

For me, this year is a year I would like to have disappear off the calendar history. Although I know when Christians pass away, they go onto GLORY, to be with Jesus. Being widowed for over 18 years now, I have been through the journey on a very personal level, more than once.  This one has hit me hardest. Liz, my sister by choice, best friend since a wee child,  we stood up to each others wedding, and were God-mother to each others  children, and truly soul sisters.

There have never been two travel buddies as perfect as the two of us!  We always commented how well fit together as vacation companions,  we  could loung on the beach, quietly for long periods of time and not talk.  Always finding creative things to observe, nothing ever passed us up, we saw everything!  We could People-watch like none other. A cup of coffee together,  (of which I did not share in that indulgent beverage until 40!), and we could conquer the world. We balanced each other better than  anyone I have ever met in my life. We spoke often how blessed we were to have each other. Both being “only children”, we had that very special bond, which I do believe helped us to relate to each other, as we appreciated our sisterhood.

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As children we were very opposite. Her parents came over from Holland, in the 50’s, with what was on their back & some basics,  with a few dollars in pocket. Brave souls they were, to venture over to the Americas, where they would begin their “good life”. That they did. “Pa”, worked his own company in shipping and did very well for himself.  They were a handsome and well like family. Strong and full of energy, which taught me well as a child.

On the opposite side of the spectrum, my parents divorced at a year old. They loved each other, yet just could not live together very well.  Mom and I lived with my grandparents, and a  very low budget.

Financially we were in different worlds.

I was more quiet, and insecure, as Liz was a pretty bold one. But we balanced each other like a teeter-tawter.  The commonalities we shared, were  that we were very compliant to our parents. Neither of us got into  trouble, nor did we want to.

She valued my patience, and I grew stronger and bolder, learning from her confidence.

There were so many other life occasions we shared, from the simple to the grand. Yet, I will miss the things in the future that we won’t share  while on this earth; becoming Grandma’s, she’ll never see my  kids get married; and  the closeness we shared, I will miss immensely, the unconditional love is and was a blessing from God. So grateful for her life…

We had a full lifetime of time together, which I value as a priceless gift, just as I do my kids.

Liz and I, dinner cruising Eastern way
Liz and I, dinner cruising – –  in 2004

Hug your friends,  and appreciate them by spending time together. Never take life for granted! That is my New Years gift to you!  Be strong and bold, withholding nothing.

Father, as we enter into a new year, we are thankful for your mercies that are new each morning. Thank you for bringing families together, friendships that last a lifetime; May we honor you with our lives each day this year. I hope everyone will find someone to befriend and share life together.

Waiting. Why is it so difficult?….. Listening – for His still small voice for direction and instruction. I am slowly giving up my “right’ to be “right”. Because I am certain that   Jesus knows what is best for me.  He holds the keys to the specific door  of which I should walk through. 

The longer I live, the more I learn – about His ways –  Oh, there are days I get so exasperated – I get worn out – I cry – and times I want to throw in the towel, because what I thought was the plan for my life – is just not working out.  The trenches seem to get thicker, deeper, and seemingly no way out. 

     ~~   But  God   ~~
   ~~  I am learning  ~~

He offers us endurance – as a reward while we wait for answered prayers. Expect to gain patience and a perspective as part of the answer  while you are in the “waiting room” of life. Sometimes it isn’t the waiting He expects, it’s utilizing the gifts and position that we have right in our hands at the moment. He wants to see if we will “act” on  it,  “work it” out.  It is the utilization of what life has given me at a given time,  and it is THEN He will show up and bless our prayer life, in ways we could not even imagine. He doesn’t want us to be lazy and wait, or view God as a genie in a bottle. 

As we  believe & trust Him, with childlike faith – (BELIEVE Him for what you need, desire and as you walk out your life – being diligent in your Christlike walk – He WILL give you the desires of your heart – and just like the women with the issue of blood –Jesus told her “your faith has made you well – – be free from your “affliction””. (your  affliction may be financial, sickness, stress, or_____, whatever it is – you can be free!  The SON has set you free indeed!)

  He is, after all : 
Immanuel, “God with us,  (Matthew 1:23)

Take the time to trust him – ask him to help you be a better listener – after all  – he does say – Be still, and KNOW that I AM God. Psalm 46:10

He has the answers, he has not left you or I!!!  He desires and wills  the very best for us- in all areas of our life. Allow him to teach you – as you wait and trust in His amazing answers for each prayer you bring before him,

These things I know: I am waiting. I am hopeful – and know He is teaching me new and beautiful things while the details are being worked out – step by step. Process and progression, I will move forward with great expectation as I await the answers to my “greater life”! 

PSALM 13  esv

vHow long, O Lord? Will you wforget me forever?

How long will you xhide your face from me?
How long must I take ycounsel in my soul
and have sorrow in my heart all the day?
How long shall my enemy be exalted over me?

zConsider and answer me, O Lord my God;
alight up my eyes, lest bI sleep the sleep of death,
clest my enemy say, “I have prevailed over him,”
lest my foes rejoice because I am dshaken.

But I have etrusted in your steadfast love;
my heart shall frejoice in your salvation.
I will sing to the Lord,
because he has dealt bountifully with me.


     1 John 3:3 

 All who have this hope in him purify themselves,<sup class="crossreference" style="color: black; vertical-align: top;" value="(A)”> just as he is pure.


 Matthew 5:3 God blesses those who realize their need  for him for the kingdom of heaven  is given to them


·         Let’s Pray…   Lord so many times I fail to believe……  Help my unbelief. Strengthen my faith when times are so difficult I can’t see straight. When I’m so tired I don’t  know which end is up, let my response NOT be frantic,  nor freak out time, but help me Holy Spirit to walk in deep faith, trusting You in ALL areas of my life. Your sweet Spirit lifts me up, carries me when I am tired, and helps me with good rest when I need it. I praise you Father, my Jesus, Immanuel – God you ARE with me.   all the days of my life, I will thank You….

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The peacefulness of Jesus’ wonderful love brings contentment, like nothing else.

Having sweet communion (not the communion of grape juice – I’m talking about the fellowship type of communion that brings on a close relational friendship), brings joy… unspeakable joy – that deep down kinda joy that rises up within your soul.

I’ve learned that taking time in Jesus, with Jesus, and through Him,  talking to him about every aspect of my life, my concerns… the fun times, the sad times and everything in between, is exactly what He longs for from me (and you)! 

Stop and think about it, when you don’t spend time with those closest to you – what happens? There becomes a void. An emptiness that needs to be restored. It’s the same with Jesus, our intercessor before our Father God; the one who cares so incredibly for us. Oh, as each season  of my life goes by, I understand this very fact, more and more!

 John 15:13-15 (NLT)
13 There is no greater love than to lay down one’s life for one’s friends. 14 You are my friends if you do what I command. 15 I no longer call you slaves, because a master doesn’t confide in his slaves. Now you are my friends, since I have told you everything the Father told me.

He brings more hope, more fulfillment, more of all the things we need. Tis SO sweet to trust in Jesus! Taking everything to him in conversation! Laying down our heart, mind and soul to Him, baring it all – and as these concerns are released,   he then fills  up our soul- he builds with strength!

Romans 15:13 (AMP)
13 May the God of your hope so fill you with all joy and peace in believing [through the experience of your faith] that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound and be overflowing (bubbling over) with hope.

I’m thinking of David – as he faced Goliath, lil young David, confident David – taking down that giant. Everyone laughed, poo pooed him. But one good sling shot with the rock – whoop – it was OVER! THAT’s the kind of building up  only God can do in our life! We have the same power within us – as we lay down our burdens and concerns to Him. (1 Samuel 17)

He longs to hear from you today… will you go to him – releasing all your fears, worries and burdens? Don’t forget to praise Him for the GOOD things he’s doing and done for you. You know how it feels to be lifted up  – should we treat Him any differently? Oh, praise Him! Release it all to Him! He is faithful to fill you up – brimming to overflowing joy  and peace!

John 15:13-15 (NLT)

13 There is no greater love than to lay down one’s life for one’s friends. 14 You are my friends if you do what I command. 15 I no longer call you slaves, because a master doesn’t confide in his slaves. Now you are my friends, since I have told
you everything the Father told me.

Psalm 33:20-21
Our soul waits for the Lord; He is our help and our shield. For our heart shall rejoice in Him, Because we have trusted in His holy name. Let Your mercy, O Lord, be upon us, Just as we hope in You.

He builds up our hope within us, as we hope in Him; 
                Continue to Hope – Dream – Build  and  Seek !
                            He put those desires in you for GOOD –