So, today is a monumental day. For many reasons.

I am going to take a little different writing approach, as I share today. 

Broken into Beautiful. 
From Mourning and Sadness into JOY. 

 

Just two weeks ago, we celebrated Easter; 

Our biggest celebration of LIFE – everlasting life because of what Jesus did for us. 
(if you are unaware of those details, PM me, and I’d be glad to share, otherwise, I do believe most know what Salvation is, and what Christ came to do for the WORLD). 

In my studying this morning, I was reading about Saul / Paul. A Jew that persecuted those who followed Jesus, was blinded for a few days. The Lord sent Ananias (who very well may have been afraid to confront Saul because of his distaste for the Lord and his followers, and was willingly ready to kill them). But God in his amazing and most wonderful might, power and knowledge, knew Saul would turn from his wicked ways and serve Christ with ZEAL as he was filled with the Holy Spirit. 

Paul suffered much; the scourging and persecution once he became vocal as he shared who Jesus was. 
God showed him what to do, what would happen, all for the sake of sharing HIS story with US today, through the Bible. Paul was a great example for us. 

The shadow of life bring darkness, but behind it all, there is LIGHT. Be the Light in a dark world

Imagine, scales fell off of Paul’s eyes after being blinded. A representation of the old turned to new. Scales like a fish skin, is what I imagine it to be like. maybe even similar to an eye that the cataract has gone bad. Take the old lens off, to put a new lens on. (Acts 9). 

Saul’s(Paul’s) conversion was huge when he left his worldly view point to serve the Living Christ. HUGE. The terrible things he did – murder, aggression, he was educated to the max, too smart for school, if you will.  
He was a fool. He admits to being a fool. He was simply bad to the bone. 

Yet, let’s take a moment to define foolish thinking in the worlds view, vs. being a fool for the Lord. (Yes, the Bible talks about bein’ a fool – quite a few times). Paul talks about his own life in Philippians 3:1-9, and 1 Tim. 1:12-17. When we place our trust and faith in our education to get us through life, or our spouse, family members, friends, or our job, type of home we live in, the brand of car and clothing we utilize – we loose. 

——> We are lost. The stuff we accomplished becomes prideful and boastful to ourselves to say ‘LOOK WHAT I HAVE DONE. look what I HAVE ACCOMPLISHED’… me me me mememememmemeemmemememememmemeME!!!!!! (insert shaking head). 

When we (and yes, it is OK to get a degree, have a nice house and things, as long as they are not our PURPOSE to define us, it is a fine line!); loosen those ‘things’ from your soul, and simply use them as a tool, too trust God with ALL our being, it is THEN faith grows. 

When we LIVE in God, his direction, are guided by HIS word, His love, and allow the Holy Spirit to guide us, then we GAIN the world. Because it does NOT have a hold on us. 
Because when we can loose our stuff to not hold us down, we become vulnerable. 

Let’s be honest, WHO LIKES being vulnerable? N.o.b.o.d.y.!!!!!!!

Paul began to BOAST in his weaknesses; guys and girls, WE ALLLLLLL HAVE WEAKNESSES!!!!!!!!!!! Yes we do.  
But, God! He tells us in the Scriptures, that through suffering, through trials, through the junk we live through, IF WE LET God HELP IS, we can boast of what HE DID IN us and through us. 
When we live through tough stuff, and we run into the wisdom and care of our Father, through Jesus and being guided by the Holy Spirit, we win. We become fools for Christ because the WORLD lives in an economy of achievement and goals. In spite of the shipwreck, stoning etc, Paul’s faith did not waiver. 
Get that —— HE DID NOT WAIVER – he boasted with ZEAL of all God did for him. It is not what we do, but what God does in and through us, God GETS THE GLORY for OTHERS TO SEE! 

In spite of the bad God turns the junk to GOOD! 

Praise God!!!!!!!!!!!

Folks, I come to you today, on this 23rd anniversary of the sudden death of my husband who was only 38 when he died from the affects of a drunk driver. 

The month of April is still a solemn one, yet a joyful one. yes, it can be both. It is both. 

It’s a time of reflection. Hope. Tears. Smiles. Happiness and remembrances of how God in his mercy did the same for me, as he did for SAUL-PAUL. 

Just like LIFE. 

Life has GOOD AND BAD. Ups and downs. Joy and sorrow. Difficulties and easiness. 

We are living in this time of Coronna virus. A new thing that happened – supposedly quickly to our whole world. 

Lots of speculations and weariness happening to people.

I see tons of anger, denial, frustration, despair, worry, depression, confusion etc, as we live in a lock down which has been forced upon the healthy so as not to get sick. 

The world economy has stopped by maybe, 75% ish. People want to work. People want to be with family and do their thing. 

But it is an awakening. A shifting if you will.

The why questions are many. One big question I hear often is why would a good God let this happen to us? 

Why? 

Why did Jesus get scourged, beat, spit on, screamed at, accused, etc – HE WAS THE INNOCENT LAMB !!!!!! Why did HE HAVE TO feel the pain he did for YOU ?????? WHY? 

What did I do that He would love ME so much he would die for me? 
#perspective

I say all of this to come to these points: 

This situation we are in today, is a time to pull away, take the free time you have and pray. Seek God. Ask forgiveness so you have salvation, and the opportunity to become whole. A time to learn the Bible and what it says for your life. 
Change is needed. 

let me say that again. C.h.a.n.g.e is NEEDED within each of us. Including me. Yes, in you too! We all are weak, but by God’s grace, we can live like Paul with zeal for Christ. 

Guys and Gals: here is the bottom line: 

As I “celebrate” my husbands HOME GOING anniversary, I miss him, as I do my Liz, and others who have left this earth. I do NOT want them to come back to earth. This earth has NOTHING for us. they enjoy heaven and ALL it’s glory vs the ugliness in this world. 

This life, guess what: It is TEMPORARY.

Put it in your mind, one day we ALL die. 

Whether it be from a virus, disease, drunk driver, cancer or __________. 

You and I will die one day. 

Grief is real. 
When you love much you grieve much. 

Grief never goes away, it just simply shifts your life as you (hopefully) will appreciate and rejoice in the good things you shared with the loved ones. You can reflect and talk about memories, and even shed tears. It’s all OK! 

So, wherever you are today, in your pride, accomplishment’s or in your humble spirit, every day, I, you, all of us, have to wake up, as God to forgive us of our yesterday’s junk in the trunk. May the bad be washed and cleansed as we begin today, whole, forgiven, living in peace with NO fear of any virus, government, lack or any other thing. God is with us, whom shall we fear? No one. 

Let the zeal of the Lord live in each of us, even on days like today, where we think of loved ones who have gone before us. 

#AuntGeri #Brian #Liz #Loren #Doris #Cindy #Mom #Dad and all others ….. they rest in His care. Praise you Jesus. 

May we live strong, wise and bold for Christ. Amen!



Waiting. Why is it so difficult?….. Listening – for His still small voice for direction and instruction. I am slowly giving up my “right’ to be “right”. Because I am certain that   Jesus knows what is best for me.  He holds the keys to the specific door  of which I should walk through. 

The longer I live, the more I learn – about His ways –  Oh, there are days I get so exasperated – I get worn out – I cry – and times I want to throw in the towel, because what I thought was the plan for my life – is just not working out.  The trenches seem to get thicker, deeper, and seemingly no way out. 

     ~~   But  God   ~~
   ~~  I am learning  ~~

He offers us endurance – as a reward while we wait for answered prayers. Expect to gain patience and a perspective as part of the answer  while you are in the “waiting room” of life. Sometimes it isn’t the waiting He expects, it’s utilizing the gifts and position that we have right in our hands at the moment. He wants to see if we will “act” on  it,  “work it” out.  It is the utilization of what life has given me at a given time,  and it is THEN He will show up and bless our prayer life, in ways we could not even imagine. He doesn’t want us to be lazy and wait, or view God as a genie in a bottle. 

As we  believe & trust Him, with childlike faith – (BELIEVE Him for what you need, desire and as you walk out your life – being diligent in your Christlike walk – He WILL give you the desires of your heart – and just like the women with the issue of blood –Jesus told her “your faith has made you well – – be free from your “affliction””. (your  affliction may be financial, sickness, stress, or_____, whatever it is – you can be free!  The SON has set you free indeed!)

  He is, after all : 
Immanuel, “God with us,  (Matthew 1:23)

Take the time to trust him – ask him to help you be a better listener – after all  – he does say – Be still, and KNOW that I AM God. Psalm 46:10

He has the answers, he has not left you or I!!!  He desires and wills  the very best for us- in all areas of our life. Allow him to teach you – as you wait and trust in His amazing answers for each prayer you bring before him,

These things I know: I am waiting. I am hopeful – and know He is teaching me new and beautiful things while the details are being worked out – step by step. Process and progression, I will move forward with great expectation as I await the answers to my “greater life”! 

PSALM 13  esv


vHow long, O Lord? Will you wforget me forever?

How long will you xhide your face from me?
How long must I take ycounsel in my soul
and have sorrow in my heart all the day?
How long shall my enemy be exalted over me?

zConsider and answer me, O Lord my God;
alight up my eyes, lest bI sleep the sleep of death,
clest my enemy say, “I have prevailed over him,”
lest my foes rejoice because I am dshaken.

But I have etrusted in your steadfast love;
my heart shall frejoice in your salvation.
I will sing to the Lord,
because he has dealt bountifully with me.

                                                                                                                                                           

     1 John 3:3 

 All who have this hope in him purify themselves,<sup class="crossreference" style="color: black; vertical-align: top;" value="(A)”> just as he is pure.


                                                                                                                                                                                                      

 Matthew 5:3 God blesses those who realize their need  for him for the kingdom of heaven  is given to them


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·         Let’s Pray…   Lord so many times I fail to believe……  Help my unbelief. Strengthen my faith when times are so difficult I can’t see straight. When I’m so tired I don’t  know which end is up, let my response NOT be frantic,  nor freak out time, but help me Holy Spirit to walk in deep faith, trusting You in ALL areas of my life. Your sweet Spirit lifts me up, carries me when I am tired, and helps me with good rest when I need it. I praise you Father, my Jesus, Immanuel – God you ARE with me.   all the days of my life, I will thank You….


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